tracythomp - two months

It has been two months today since i went in to labor, two months tomorrow since my life has been changed with a precious baby boy. I can't describe how happy I am that my son in now apart of our family. We love him so much. If feels so complete to have him here, like he was always meant to be. i love watching how Adam and I begin to fit more into the role of parents. I guess i am more watching him become a father, it is a beautiful thing. I know i am also becoming a mother, but some how it is hard to watch that happen to me, it just feels like it was always meant to be. Laike is now interacting and playing, smiling and laughing (more so at Adam than at me but i still love it when he does it) He is starting to develop somewhat of a schedule. He is still waking up two times at night but i think i am just getting used to a lack of sleep. I am still taking classes one night a week right now. I hate to leave him but knowing it is only a couple of hours makes it better. Soon I will be in classes three nights a week and that will suck. I am supposed to start my internship in the fall and i am dreading it completely. I still haven't found a place for Laike to go for the 12 hours that I will need someone to watch him. But I am earnestly praying that something wonderful happens and it all works out. I know it will only get harder as he gets old to want to be away from him, because i have seen already that every day i fall more in love with Laike and with being a stay at home mom. Adam and I went up to the lake this weekend and had a really good time with each other and with family. I wish so bad that my family was close to me that we could share special occasions together. Since i can't have my own family with me right now I am blessed that Adam's family has definitely become mine as well. I am so blessed, Thanks be to God!