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Internship and life
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Sep. 21st, 2010 | 11:01 am
I started my internship two weeks ago. So, for the past two weeks I have been overwhelmed with guilt and pain over leaving my Laike. I have not enjoyed being at my internship because I know my baby is in the care of another. I have nothing but trust for those watching my son, however, the part of me that is now mother happens to take up most of my thoughts. In any other situation I think I would truely enjoying my internship and giving it my all. I am in desperate need to let go and allow this internship to be the learning experience I know it should be. Yesterday, I was sitting in my group supervision class and I was reminded why I really do love this work. Though the days are tough and the time away from Laike completely breaks my heart, I really do think that this is a beautiful work that I have the privilege of being apart of. Yesterday a woman came into my office and immediately began weeping. I was set back at the thought of just meeting me and yet allowing her emotions to let loose. I desperately want to be used by God in this time and I know if I am to do this, I must let go of my present guilt and trust that this is the space I need to be in at this time. I know Laike is okay, He knows he is loved and in the end I truely believe it will be right for our family for me to finish this degree.
Laike is truely the light in my life right now. Adam and I have recently been doing an experiment. Laike sits in his bouncy seat where a monkey, elephant and giraffe hang over his head. He grabs his monkey every time be leaves the elephant and giraffe. So we decided to move the monkey around to the other spots and see if he still grabs for it. He does. No matter where the monkey goes he grabs it down and leaves the other two. I guess this is just my first realization that my baby has preferences and likes and dislikes. Funny that baby is!
Adam is starting to look at Music therapy as a possible future for him. He has talked to a few people and plans to go sit in on a session next week. It is excited for him to be looking at something new for his life. He has been unsettled in his current job for at least the last two years. He is spending more time in music and I believe it is truely a magical way for him to express his creative side.
I love my family, Praise be to God
Laike is truely the light in my life right now. Adam and I have recently been doing an experiment. Laike sits in his bouncy seat where a monkey, elephant and giraffe hang over his head. He grabs his monkey every time be leaves the elephant and giraffe. So we decided to move the monkey around to the other spots and see if he still grabs for it. He does. No matter where the monkey goes he grabs it down and leaves the other two. I guess this is just my first realization that my baby has preferences and likes and dislikes. Funny that baby is!
Adam is starting to look at Music therapy as a possible future for him. He has talked to a few people and plans to go sit in on a session next week. It is excited for him to be looking at something new for his life. He has been unsettled in his current job for at least the last two years. He is spending more time in music and I believe it is truely a magical way for him to express his creative side.
I love my family, Praise be to God
