tracythomp -

Today I did a double and I am feeling the affects of it as I sit here completely zoned out. I sat in on an AA meeting today and as the patients went around the room telling their stories or all they've been through and how they desperately want a new life i was moved. I find myself questioning their motives and knowing they are manipulating just to get their way. I was put in my place tonight As i heard a man who came from being homeless on the streets looking for the fastest fix to a place where he knows that know matter what life may bring only God can sustain his joy. I, first the first time in my life 7 months here realized what I am doing. I helping people to see the light at the end of their dark abyss. Some get it and some die, the ones who die are a lesson to the ones who live on to tell their story.