tracythomp - thinking about things

I am sitting here looking around my house as there are empty places where "things" once were. Things we rarely used, things we thought we definitely needed, things that in two years became objects where clutter piled up. Now i look around and with the "things" gone most of the clutter has found new places to pile up. I am thinking about my life and how soon the "things" that have piled up in my life will be faint memories. The "Things" that we think we need or think we can not live without so easily gone and not missed. Adam and I have wanted a simple life however things still seem to creep in. I suppose on some level we wanted these things or believed they were needed.
Although there are many who don't know why we are choosing to leave this comfort for two years and go to a place we had never even thought of before the peace corp, we know we are doing the right thing. Yes we also have our apprehensions. I will be the first to say that right now a house in the country, near a lake in michigan sounds mighty nice. When I let myself I can almost smell the beauty and the refreashing secnt in michigan. The idea of a big back yard and all the animals I can think of running around. Yes that sounds wonderful. I know it would be a lie to say that I am doing this because there is nothing i can think or wanting more. However what I do want most is to connect. I want to be a source of Change. I want to be apart of something right and good. I know that moving to michigan and settling in close with family in friends would also be a beautiful experience and I believe that one day when I receive that blessing I will thank God for every fresh lake breath I take. Right now thats not what we are called to. Right now we are called to be avenues of change by way of meeting people and loving people. God gives us choices and I know he would be equally happy with Adam and I whether we chose to live in Michigan or serve our two years in Kyrgyzstan. Since I was little I always wanted to make the most of the life that I was blessed with. I was blessed with loving parents who allowed me to make my own choices, mistakes and struggles. The times that I remember struggling I remember them right there with me holding my hand and gently encouraging me to do what I believed was the best and right thing to do. This is what led me to the many joys I have been blessed with. I was taught to have courage in myself and to believe that there was a greater Voice that was guiding me. I have been blessed I know that. Now I want to be a blessing. I do not know the people of Kyrgyzstan, I do not know what they love or what they hate. I know that through this I will learn I will grow and I will bring back with me "THINGS" that I never would have had. These are the types of "things" I crave in life. These are the types of "things" that I want to share. These are the "things" worth giving. Stay with us while we take this journey.